If These Walls Could Talk

You may feel unqualified. The giants look too big. But when you step into that calling, there is a supernatural force that will push you into your destiny, a favor that will open doors no person can shut, a power to accomplish dreams you never thought possible.

Dear Lord,
Today…….I am asking all my prayer warriors to say a prayer that may help others. So many people are hurting right now. Many are struggling with finances and need jobs. Some are facing foreclosure and don’t even know how they are going to make it from week to week..

Many are lonely. . Many are heartbroken. . Many are facing sickness and health is fading. . Some are dealing with difficult family members. Many have lost HOPE.. Tonight, let us put our prayers and faith together decree and declare breakthrough over our families. Financial miracles WILL take place. Jobs WILL be found. Our Bodies WILL be made whole & sickness WILL flee. Marriages and relationships WILL be restored. Family members WILL find Jesus. Heartbreaks WILL be healed. JOY WILL be restored and HOPE WILL be found. In Jesus Name. Amen!!!!!! Keep God First…….

One of the reasons why I asked the team if they would sing that song by Tasha Cobbs, Leonard O M G is because we were in the middle of the pandemic.
And I was just listening to that song over and over again on repeat.
And to be honest, it really didn’t make a lot of sense because it felt like the world was falling apart.
And yet I had this knowing down in my spirit that God was still working.
You see what happens to us is we allow a momentary affliction to rob us of the permanent evidence that God has been with us.
And this song was such a reminder to me that when I look at the totality of the picture, not just the moment that what I see in that moment, when I see that full picture, what I see is that God was working throughout it all.
So for me, when I sing this song, I sing it in a whisper because Tasha and the worship team they can like really sing and God is still working on my vocal chords in that way.
But I just hear over and over again. Look what you’ve done.
I don’t know what you’re going through.
I don’t know what you’re hoping God is gonna help you figure out in this moment.
But if I could just remind you to look back over what he’s done, if I could just remind you to look back over what you’ve been exposed to, then maybe just, maybe you’ll be able to tell.
Doubt that my God’s got a history that my God’s got a track record that my God has a way of showing up and being faithful over and over and over again.
And I know that this moment that you’re standing and I wanna prophesy for a moment.
If that’s OK, that the moment you are standing in right now that you’re gonna look back and say, oh my God, look what you’ve done.
God. You took my ass and you turned them into beauty. God.
You took what I thought the enemy was trying to use to kill me and you used it to propel me now.
This isn’t everyone’s word. So I don’t expect for everyone to say something.
But if this is your word, I want you to take a moment and just put O M G by faith in the chat O M G by faith in the chat O M G God, you’re gonna save my child.
Oh my God, you’re gonna help me to get into this marriage.
Oh My God, you’re gonna help me to build this business.
Oh my God, you’re giving me language, you’re giving me resources. Oh my God by faith. Oh my God.
I dare you to decree and declare over any area of doubt in your life right now that I see God is working.
I see God is moving. How do I know it? Because I don’t serve a stagnant God.
Spirit of the living God fall fresh over their lives, spirit of the living God fall fresh over their hearts, their minds, their soul God.
Because when a living God steps in everything changes, I would be worried if I was worshiping an idol or a statue, but my God lives my redeemer lives.
And so yes, I’m facing tomorrow with expectation that God’s already working it out.
I’m talking to you. Hey, hey, you, God sees you.
God knows what you’re going through. You aren’t lost. You haven’t been forgotten.
You are right in the hands in the heart of our savior.
One of the things I love about you that it’s an opportunity for women to come together and to really talk about some of the things that are plaguing us as women.
And I already mentioned a little bit earlier what I’m noticing as a trend amongst believers in general, but especially women as it relates to faith.
So many of us aren’t seeing our lives progress in the way that we thought that they should or we don’t always see our voice and our beings represented in communities of faith in the way that we want.
And little by little, we begin distancing ourselves from faith.
And yet so many of you have trusted woman evolve and trusted the grace and the anointing that God’s placed on my life.
And I just want you to know that this is God saying that I will come chase you down by any means necessary.
If it takes a woman preacher with rip jeans to come get you, I’ll make sure that you can get it in a way that you can receive it because you are just that important.
I love you so much because I know God preserved me for you and to be able to serve what God is doing in your life is just a tremendous blessing and honor that I never take for granted.
Usually we have a little bit more of a chat, but I feel like preaching a little bit.
I was studying and praying about what it means to have longevity.
And when I was thinking of this, God drew my attention to Hebrews 11.
For those of you unfamiliar Hebrews 11 is a very popular passage of scripture because Hebrews 11 is all about the heroes of faith.
It’s like the Faith Hall of Fame scripture after scripture.
When you get a chance, you should read the whole thing of all of these people who demonstrated great faith before God.
And I don’t know why God took me to Hebrews.
Generally, I like to read about a woman who had longevity in her lifetime where she was able to establish longevity, someone who we recognized immediately like a Mary, like a ruth who had longevity because of who they were.
And yet as I was studying in Hebrews 11 11 I saw for the first time, something I had never really seen before and I wanna share that with you.
I just want you to know it’s not too late to invite one of your girls to a girl’s night.
They didn’t even know they needed because I believe that as we’re chatting, as we’re talking, as we’re connecting, that God is gonna bring a restoration of faith for so many of you who are connected to this moment.
So all I’m gonna say is child. Don’t be greedy. Ok? Don’t just get this message for yourself.
Make sure you share it with someone else. Hebrews 11 11, just one scripture.
And it says by faith, Sarah herself also received strength to, to conceive seed and she bore a child when she was past the age because she judged Him that Him as God faithful, who had promised by faith.
Sarah herself also received strength to conceive seed and she bore a child when she was past the age because she judged him faithful, who had promised God.
I recognize that you are renewing faith.
God, I don’t know who this message is for, but I know what you told me when I was praying.
And what you told me is that someone is finding a hard time keeping the faith, no one would know it because they’re still showing up, they’re still working, they’re still performing.
But down in their soul, faith is slipping through their fingers. God.
And you told me to share this word so that they could recognize that their faith is more in reach than they realize.
So God, I pray that every heart that is meant to receive this message would open it.
They open their hearts right now and that this word would take root in their lives, God, that it would open their eyes and that they would be refreshed and renewed in the presence of God.
And I ask that everyone who comes into agreement with that prayer would type amen in the comments in Jesus name.
I pray. This is the part where you type Amen in the comments I love.
When you say amen, I say amen. But when you say amen, it like seals that prayer for you.
It says I am a part of what just was spoken in that prayer.
And amen is my way of coming into agreement and sealing it in my own life.
The very first time that I spoke, I um was in Houston at my dad’s conference and I shared my testimony for those of you who are unfamiliar with my testimony.
I share all the time about me becoming pregnant as a teenager and I was sharing my testimony and it was really more for me than for me to like begin speaking to other women.
I love you. But I wasn’t necessarily thinking about you in that moment.
I was thinking about me and how I did didn’t want to live with this secret, this hidden weight that no one knew about any longer.
I got pregnant before social media before Instagram before it would be on uh the shade room or T M Z uh that I got pregnant and I knew that as the world was changing, that this was something that I should share.
And so I shared my, my story and I wasn’t expecting much to happen.
And almost a week or two after I shared my story, this person reached out to me and asked me, would I share my story for their conference?
And I was like, sure, you know, like here I am owning it myself.
I can help someone else own it. And this is so off subject.
But part of the reason why I was able to share my story wasn’t necessarily for other people, right?
I shared it for myself because I’d come to a place where I no longer wanted to be tormented by my own truth.
Ok. That’s already a word for someone.
You can’t allow yourself to be tormented by your own truth or you will never have peace for yourself.
A lot of times we want peace but we want peace that is based on changing the past that we can no longer reach.
And yet true peace is coming to terms with the truth that I can’t change it. God allowed it.
So God must be able to use it.
And so I am not going to torment nor punish myself for what I have done and take energy out of what I could be doing.
I told my story for me. I didn’t tell it so someone else could make me feel better.
I told it because I had finally come to a place where I had peace about it.
What made me continue telling my story is that it helps someone else come to peace for themselves.
So when I was invited to come and speak, I said sure if I can help someone else because there were 70 year old women coming up to me saying I never told anyone.
But that was my story too. I never told anyone but I got pregnant too.
I didn’t keep my baby and I’ve been carrying this shame. How did you do it?
How did you say it? And because you said it now I have strength to say it too.
I told my story because I wanted to see other people be free.
I wanted to share the good news that shame is not the end.
Now, when I began sharing my story and I got invited to speak the first place I was invited to speak was London.
Crazy. Like how you go from not speaking to somebody in mind you to speak to London.
I went and got my passport so fast before they changed their mind.
I didn’t know if they sent to the wrong email address, but the one thing you’re gonna do is have me there.
Ok, so I get my passport.
I go to London and I am now Panini pressed to experience everything I can experience in Europe in about four days.
Ok. I got four days to tour to tear this city up one day to speak, going to the countryside one day to sleep.
I had one free day and I decided to do something insane.
I get on this train that leaves at five o’clock in the morning to go to Paris because I didn’t know if your girl was ever going to London again.
Ok. And I was too close to Paris and I wanted to experience it.
Let me tell you how press I was.
This is a side bar but this girl talk and we’re here now. Ok. My sisters came with me.
She sprained her ankle the very first day that we got to London.
We were in the emergency room in London.
Someone with their whole mind would say we’re not gonna go to Paris because she sprained her ankle and she’s in a wheelchair.
But me don’t have it all. I said she can get on that wheelchair.
On this train because what we’re going to do is try these croissants. Ok.
I am, I am committed to carbs. Ok.
And I’m not gonna let a little sprained ankle keep me from the carbs that God has for me in Paris.
So we go to Paris core is in a wheelchair. We’re rolling around Paris.
We’ve gone to the lou I’ve gotten a croissant everywhere they had croissant hanging in the window.
I just wanted to see if it was different in different places.
But one of the things that I will never, ever forget and I’ve never been to Paris since then is just how incredible the buildings were.
There was something about walking the streets of Paris that just made you realize like I’m literally going back in time.
The buildings in Paris are different than the buildings here.
You can tell that the buildings here may have some age to them.
But these buildings in Paris, I mean, some of them were built in the 11 hundreds.
Literally, it’s like going back in time and whenever I’m in any space that makes me reflect on the centuries connected to it.
I always think to myself, if these walls could talk, I wonder what they’d say if you are one of those types.
As a matter of fact, this is what we’re gonna even title this video on youtube.
If you look for it later, I want you to write if these walls could talk, that’s the subject I wanna speak to you from today because when I was walking around Paris and this was over 10 years ago, all I could think to myself over and over again is if these walls could talk, what would they say?
These walls that have seen centuries of lives, centuries of heartbreak, centuries of death and birth.
And if these walls could talk, I wonder what they would say.
They don’t make buildings the way that they make them in perish anymore. These buildings are made of stone.
We make buildings with wood and steel and glass because it’s so much cheaper than building with stone and because stone is a limited resource, but these building, these walls were created in stone.
The more that I think about it, the longevity of those buildings exists because of what they’re made of, you see wood comes and it may or may not withstand the storm and steel and glass may or may not withstand the way that the weather changes.
It may or may not withstand the sun and the pressure.
But these buildings that were made of stone, they’re difficult to demolish.
The more I thought about the walls in Paris, the more I thought about the walls of our own heart because if we’re honest, we don’t wanna admit it.
But when we talk about building walls, we want to believe that the walls we have built to protect ourselves are made of wood.
But if we’re really honest, they’re made of something much more indestructible, they’re made of stone.
That’s why someone can say I love you and you never receive it.
See, the right kind of love would eventually demolish those walls and maybe demolish them immediately.
But when you have built your whole esteem and your whole identity based on these walls that keep the wrong words from coming in, even when the right words come, they don’t have any entrance point because the walls that you build are made out of stone.
If those walls could talk, what would they say?
But they talk about the way you were rejected and neglected.
What they talk about the way your fear still torment you and haunt you what they talk about your insecurity, what they talked about, who touched you or who didn’t touch you, what they talk about what broke you.
If those walls could talk, what would they say? You see?
It’s important for us to recognize that when we have built walls that they don’t come down very easily.
Some of us are walking around with hearts made of stone.
Once again, you’d never know it from the outside because from the outside, we look open, we look friendly, we look outgoing.
Some of us. Some of y’all look like y’all’s heart is missed. I ain’t even gonna lie to you.
Some of y’all I can tell in my comment section that some of y’all have just decided bitter is who I am.
Call me Bitter Betty, changed my name. This is my truth.
But there are others of us who have been masquerading so long that we know how to smile with our heart of stone.
Tonight. I prayed that as we come together, that God would illuminate the places in your heart that are made of stone.
Because if God illuminates those places of your heart that are made of stone and, and I wanna be really particular about there being places in your heart made of stone because we can be open and and friendly in one area, we can have great relationship with our family in one area.
But when it comes to romance, our heart is made of stone.
When it comes to purpose, our heart is made of stone.
When it comes to religion, there’s a part of my heart that is made of stone.
And as long as I stay open in some areas, I feel ok with the part of my heart that is made of stone.
But God says I want all of you.
I don’t want just to have the parts of you that you’re willing to give me.
I wanna have even those stony places. I don’t know who I’m talking to.
But I hear God saying that the reason why I can’t leave you alone in this season is because I’m after the stony places in your heart.
The reason why you can’t get any peace is because I’m after the stony places in your heart, I want you to open up again.
I want you to feel again, not for them, but for God. God, not for them.
But so that you can have a genuine encounter again.
You see, because if one part of your heart is made of stone, then that’s a part of your heart that God could be occupying.
And if God can’t occupy that part because you allowed fear and you allowed anxiety and you allowed shame and you allow disappointment to take up residence.
Then God says, I don’t have all of all of you and we have a jealous God.
That means God says, I want all of your heart. I want all of your Brokenness.
I’m not asking you to make your heart something. Not if it’s fractured.
Give it to me if it’s fragile, give it to me if it’s skeptical, give it to me, just don’t allow it to turn into stone.
But I’ve got news for those stony places in your heart that it doesn’t matter how much your heart has been turned into stone.
And it doesn’t matter how long you’ve been walking around in the stony heart that God says with just one touch, everything changes with just one touch.
And I hear God saying that I’ve been knocking down those walls for years and they were made out of stone.
But I kept sending word after word and friendship after friendship and scripture after scripture.
You tried to get on social media to ignore it and it was right in front of your face. Anyway.
Why? Because I’m after those stony places, I’m after those broken places that the enemy meant it for evil.
But God says I can turn it around for good. Are there any stony people watching tonight?
I want you to know that God has created this moment for you to have a divine encounter from the place of stone.
Got the place where I’m ready to give up the place where I don’t believe anymore.
The place where I just don’t have faith because the last time I had faith, it cost me so much that I don’t think I could ever recover again.
God says that’s your stone talking.
God says, I hear your stone talking but I hear God say, if you tell me what stone says, I can tell you what faith says.
If you can tell me Brokenness says, then I can tell you what faith says.
God says that somebody has got a stony heart, but the power to release the stone is in your mouth.
God says that as long as it’s kept down on the inside of you, it can echo and reverberate.
But the moment that you are willing to release it, the moment you’re willing to say, God, I am depressed.
God, I am anxious. God, I’m so afraid of God. I’m afraid of losing another person.
God, I’m afraid I don’t have what it takes. That stone loses its power and grace floods the room.
I see grace flood in your room. I see grace flood in your heart.
I see grace flood in your spirit. God says I got grace for that.
God says I got breakthrough for that.
God says I got power for that for the place that’s been stony since you were a little girl.
Grace for the place that has been stony since they left you, since they hurt you, since they broke you.
I got grace for that grace for your mistakes, grace, for your shame, grace, for your regret.
Don’t allow it to turn your heart to stone.
I got grace for doubt till you know the God, you serve the God, you serve, takes stone and builds masterpieces.
I said that stone that the builder rejected can be a part of what I’m building in the earth.
So as I was studying about longevity, the reason why I was so struck that Sarah is in the hero, the heroes of faith is because Sarah laughed at God.
When God said that he wanted to perform a miracle for Sarah. Sarah laughed.
A God has God ever said something to you so ridiculous that you laughed at Him?
How does someone who laughed at God end up in Hebrews 11 as a hero of faith?
I wanna break that down for you because I feel like so many of us believe that if we, if we are skeptical that we are disqualified and yet God used someone who was blatantly skeptical and allowed them to become a hero of faith.
I want you to stop punishing yourself for not having enough faith for this season you are in.
And instead I wanna share with you a lesson I learned very quickly just from Hebrews 11 11 about Sarah’s life that I think will, you will find worthy for where you are in your life.
Sarah in Hebrews 11 11, it tells us that Sarah by faith, receive strength to conceive seed.
I’m trying to figure out how sis went from laughing at God to receiving the miracle that she didn’t believe was possible.
God help me. How did I go from thinking this would never happen at all to standing in the fulfillment of what God promised that’s gonna be someone’s testimony you’re watching tonight.
And God says, I want you to bring your skepticism into this moment because I’m gonna take you from being skeptical about what I promised you to standing in the fulfillment of what I said.
And I realize that there is a powerful step that we don’t often preach about when talking about Sarah’s life.
We just talk about how God bless Abraham and Sarah to conceive a child in their old age.
But Hebrews 11 11 gives us insight into exactly what happened that made her capable of producing what God said.
Does anyone wanna be a producer.
Is anyone watching who says I wanna produce what God said, I ain’t gonna lie to you.
I am a little bit skeptical.
I don’t understand how someone with my education, how someone who doesn’t have the tools and haven’t had the example can become what God is calling me to become.
But I do want to become a producer anyway, see what you’ve gotta do is get down in your spirit.
The reality that you can do it anyway.
If God has called you to it, if God says that it’s possible, then you can do it anyway.
Hebrews 11 and 11 tells me that by faith, Sarah herself receives strength to conceive seed.
It doesn’t say that Sarah received seed by faith.
It says Sarah received strength to produce the thing that God said that stood out in my mind because I always think that she went from laughing at God to producing.
But there was an in between step in which she became someone who received strength to conceive.
She received strength. That word strength means that’s power when broken down. What it means is miraculous power.
If you break it down even further, it says that it means possibilities that she received the possibilities and the possibilities gave her strength.
That word faith. If you look it up says first possibilities and then that power says power.
What does that mean? That before she even laid hold of what God was promising her that the first thing she did was she received the possibilities.
You see what the enemy is after is never the thing itself.
What the enemy wants more than anything is our belief that it is not possible.
Because if I can get you to believe that it is not possible.
You wanna have, have you won’t have enough faith to believe that the impossible is possible.
God helped me to say this the way that I was studying it because I recognize that anything that is gonna happen in the earth is gonna happen through people who believe that it is possible.
And I am crazy enough to believe that this may be hey, you, but I am talking specifically to some person who has been called to accept that the reason why you are set apart.
The reason and why you could not stay in that family.
The reason why you had to move out of that city is because you are one who believes in possibilities.
You are one who believes that I don’t care if it’s never been done before. I believe in the impossible.
The reason why God held, held you. Oh God, I can feel this so strongly.
The reason why God has you so convinced in the impossible is because you are the one who was going to step into the impossible and God had to hold you back and God had to separate you because if I didn’t separate you, then their belief would contaminate you.
But because I separated you, I incubated your ability to think about the impossible.
The impossible becomes possible because I incubated your faith. And God didn’t just give Sarah seed.
God says, what I’m gonna give you is a mind to believe that the impossible is possible.
I hear God saying, I wanna change your mind.
I hear God saying that I wanna posture your mentality differently that I want you to stop praying for things.
And instead I want you to start praying that you would open my mind to the possibilities.
God, what can you do through me in technology? God, what can you do through me in ministry? God?
What can you do through me in this world, in this family, in this community and not what you’ve already done before because that would be boring.
But because I serve a living God, my only request is God. What is the impossible?
That is possible for me? What is the impossible that can happen? Because you gave me eyes to see it.
You gave me creativity to produce it.
This is what I’m talking about when I say lay down your gifts and talents before God, because your gifts and talents are subjected to what has already been seen.
But when you lay it before God, God says I can take your gifts and talent and turn it into something that has never been seen.
It’s impossible. And because it is impossible, impossible, piques the interest of God.
Impossible is where God says, I get to show the fullness of my glory.
Does anybody wanna see God’s glory? It would be impossible for me to break that generational curse.
God says you got my attention. When you started speaking impossible, you got my power.
When you started speaking impossible, you got my strength. When you started speaking impossible.
Sarah, Sarah received the possibilities.
Did you know that the possibilities are still endless?
I know you lost on one side.
I know you feel stuck on another.
But I hear God saying there’s still possibilities.
And I just for a moment, I want to minister to someone who has decided to live with the mindset of it is no longer possible.
That’s where God wants to rest in your life.
That’s where God wants to show himself strong in your life.
It’s in the area that you no longer believe is possible.
God, I’m starting to give up on that child. God, I’m starting to give up on that dream.
God, I’m starting to give up on deliverance. God says, deliverance is what I do.
How could you give up on the very essence of who I am?
And I hear God saying, don’t give up because it’s still possible.
But instead of asking God for the thing, ask God to expand your mind to the possibilities that it can still happen.
Because if you can stretch your mind, I can produce with a stretched mind I can produce with a stretched spirit.
Hm. And I just got this visual as I was speaking. Oh God.
And somebody’s been trying to stretch for so long that their arms are tired.
It’s like in order to keep your world from closing in on you, you’ve had your arms outstretched, but you’re tired and you’re growing weary and you’re ready to give up on your face and you’re ready to allow that stone to just close in on you.
Because if those walls could talk, they would say I’m tired.
If those walls could talk, they would say I don’t wanna be here anymore and you’re tired of holding out the walls.
And I hear God saying that the faith that produces strength comes from opening up your mind to the possibility that I don’t have to do this on my own.
I hear God saying you’ve done a good job for what you’ve had to work with.
But there is a power that won’t just hold the walls back but will destroy the walls that are trying to close in on you.
I don’t know who needs to hear this, but you shall live and not die.
And you will declare that the Lord was working through it all.
You shall live and not die, not, you shall survive and not die, not, you shall barely make it and not die.
But you will live. I hear God saying that you will have life and have it more abundantly that you will not die.
I don’t know who you are, but I feel it so strongly in my heart right now that God says this is not the end.
I come against depression right now in the name of Jesus, I suicide right now in the name of Jesus that God said you were about to give up and got tired.
But God sent this word to hold the walls back, to hold the walls back so that you could catch your breath so that you could say God, if you could just send one word to help me make it through the day, I hear God saying that this is the word you have been waiting for.
This is the moment that you have been waiting for and let someone else rebuke and declare on your behalf and I rebuke it right now in the name of Jesus.
And the same God that snatched me out of depression and the same God that snatched suicidal thoughts out of my mind.
It’s the same God that will show up in your life right now and I decree and declare that you are not just seeing this by accident, but you are seeing this because God has plans to prosper you and not to harm you.
That God wants you to know that He sees you in every season.
And I want you to know friend that this is not the end, this is not the end hall’s gotta let go of you.
Darkness has to remove its grass off of you.
God said that you are not here by coincidence that you were chosen and formed on purpose and you begin in heaven and heaven is where you will return and you will not go one moment sooner than God has decided.
I don’t care what the doctor says. I don’t care what the report says.
I don’t care what they’re saying about what’s happening in your mind.
What I know for sure is that God says, I’m still working.
God says I’m still working and I still see you.
And if we’re gonna have faith that has longevity, if we’re gonna have peace, that has longevity, we’ve got to learn to do what Sarah did.
My Bible tells me in Hebrews 11 and 11 that Sarah judged him faithful.
It says that by faith, Sarah herself also receives strength to conceive seed and she bore a child when she was past the age because she judged him faithful.
Sarah put God on trial.
I know somebody grew up in church where they said, you don’t question God and yet in three and 10, God literally says, test me in this, in Hebrews 11 11.
It says that Sarah judged him faithful.
God says, you can put me on trial, test me, I’m faithful, test me.
I’m good, test me. I have a plan.
The longevity of faith doesn’t come because everything goes the way that we wanted it to when we wanted it to happen.
That way. Longevity and faith comes because we learned to put God on trial.
God, you said no weapon formed against me will prosper. God.
You told me that I will declare the works of the Lord.
And right now I’m seeing the works of the enemy. I’m seeing works of depression. I’m seeing works of anxiety.
God, you promised in your word that there is an inheritance connected to those who seek after your righteousness.
You said seek you first the kingdom and all other things will be added unto you.
You said that your strength is made perfect in my weakness.
I’m putting your word on trial because my life feels like it’s falling apart right now and faith is made strong when it is put on trial.
I don’t want you to have longevity and success.
I don’t want you to have longevity and finances.
I know somebody says devil you alive my job.
My mission on this earth is for you to have longevity and faith since my faith is tried too 2021 cut a fool in my life.
And I had moments where I said, God, what is this God?
Is this some kind of payback for the times when I didn’t serve you?
Is this some kind of payback for the things that happened in my life that no one else knows about God.
Where are you in the midst of this God, what am I doing wrong? God, where are you?
And I heard God saying, do you not trust me with this?
And you know what I said, I don’t, I don’t know how to trust you with this.
But God, if you’re telling me that I can’t, I wanna put you on the stand because I want my testimony to be like Sarah, that I judged you faithful, to take care of my seed, to take care of this ministry, to take care of my health.
God, I wanna judge you faithful.
Someone has made a decision about who God is without even allowing God to take the stand.
And I wanna challenge you sis to not give up on God just because life isn’t going the way that you desire His life wasn’t going the way that Sarah desired either.
But before God changed her circumstance, he changed her mind by opening a her up to the possibilities.
Is it possible that you closed your mind and missed your transformation?
Is it possible that you turned your back on God in one area of your life, in two areas all the way and yet because you turned your life away, you’re missing that He’s still faithful.
I hear God saying, don’t give up too soon.
See this thing all the way through because when you see it all the way through, what you’re gonna see is that I was hurting when you were hurting?
Mm Jesus wept over Lazarus before he brought him back to life because when we hurt, God hurts too.
God didn’t want that to happen to you.
You think that this is the plan that you think God planned COVID?
You think God wanted you to have to bury your family? You think God wanted you to be facing homelessness.
This isn’t what God wanted to. You think God wanted you to be lonely.
You think God wanted you to be depressed? This isn’t what God wanted. I either.
This is what happens when you have free will in a society that can do whatever it wants.
And when sin is in the picture, anything happens and because we are all connected when one of us sins, the other one is hurt and sin is produced and multiplied through the earth.
So God’s goal, God’s role is not to keep it from happening because I gave you free will.
I’m too good to take away your free will.
The promise instead is that if you stick this thing out with me, you will judge me faithful, faithful in my plans for you faithful, in my ability to make all things work together for your good.
But you gotta keep me on the stand. You’re watching this message.
And I feel so strongly that what you need more than anything is to be reminded of the beauty of salvation.
That salvation is our ability to be saved from anything that is killing us.
Some of you, you’ve been saved a long time, but you haven’t allowed salvation to touch that shame.
You haven’t allowed salvation to touch that depression, that anxiety, those insecurities, that anger somebody’s angry.
And yet I hear God saying if those walls could talk, you could finally get breakthrough.
I wanna pray for you.
I want to pray for those who have never received salvation. I don’t like Christians child.
Some of us Christians don’t like Christians. OK? But I love Jesus. Can I tell you why?
Because Jesus had so many opportunities to allow his heart to be turned to stone and yet he did the work to keep his heart open.
There’s a passage real quick.
I just wanna share it with you and it’s an Ezekiel and it says a new heart also I will give you and a new spirit will I put within you and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh and I will give you a heart of flesh friend.
Can we do a, a heart transplant tonight?
Hey, you, your heart has salvation available to it.
Hey, you depressed. You afraid you inadequate. You.
We serve a God who wants to save you.
He’s so desperate to save you that he needed a bridge.
He said, I can’t access them and they can’t access me.
And so what I’m gonna do instead is I’m gonna send a bridge so they never have to be without me again at that bridge is Jesus and Jesus had to walk the earth because he needed to understand what you were up against.
So that when he sat on the right hand of the father, he could make intercession on your behalf, Jesus is making intercession on your behalf when you cannot pray for you, Jesus is looking saying, I know exactly what they’re going through.
I know exactly what it feels to be rejected.
I know exactly what it feels like to be abused, to be wrongly accused.
I know exactly what it feels like.
And here I am, I’m gonna pray for them so that they never have to be without God.
So I want to offer you an opportunity for salvation and maybe you’ve done this before, but there is a refreshing of renewing coming to your heart.
And I wanna ask you to just close your eyes and I want you to envision the parts of your heart that you know, we’re turning to stone, bitterness, anger, uncertainty, grief.
I just can’t feel anymore. I just can’t believe anymore. I can keep working.
I can keep serving. I can keep showing up, but I just can’t believe anymore.
I just don’t have what it takes to believe for that anymore.
And God says that’s the part of your heart.
I want spirit of the living God.
I wanna thank you for Jesus.
Thank you for making Him who had no sin, all of my sin, all of my weaknesses.
All of my stone you placed in his body and you put it to death.
And yet I’m walking around like he’s still alive.
Jesus, save me from this stony heart.
Jesus saved me from this stony place I’ve been living in. I don’t wanna live here anymore.
I wanna have faith again. I don’t wanna be skeptical. I wanna have faith again.
God help me, God. I’m desperate to experience life as you have envisioned it.
And I’m carrying around dead weight, Jesus.
I thank you for every person connected to this message, God, thank you for granting us access to the stony places in their heart.
God, my prayer is that this prayer, this moment, this teaching would begin chipping away and that they would receive strength to chip away at it themselves.
That any time that Sony place would begin to speak, that they would give it breath, but then they would replace it with the word of God that you would give them strength to have faith again, that you would allow their mind to wrap around the possibilities that this too could work together for my good.
I’m asking God that you would begin to rebirth a new way of thinking a new way of being a new way of living God that doesn’t change what was but helps them to take what wasn’t throw it at what is with confidence God that you have not left them nor forsaken them.
God. We thank you. That you didn’t leave us here to just turn to stone.
But that you said, I want you to have life and have it more abundantly.
And so I want to prophesy that even as we receive this message, even as it chips away from those stony places that you will restore all that we feel like we’ve lost that you will help us to see that though.
We may not have access to what was anymore that what can become is still beautiful.
Forgive us father because we have sinned. We have fallen short of your expectation.
We have fallen short of your grace, forgive us, renew us and hold us close.
Mhm Like little girls, like little girls who needed a hug from dad, hug them so close father that even when this message is over, that those walls would keep talking and as they keep talking, that they would tumble down God.
I thank you that this is already within your will to do.
I’m not asking you for something that I am uncertain about God.
I know your heart throughout history and your heart is to see us redeemed and delivered.
And so God, I thank you that because I know what I am praying is in your will.
That as we come into agreement that you will be in our mist and God, I thank you that this is just the beginning in Jesus name.
I pray a man, a man type a man in the comments type a man in the chat.
A man and a man again, friends. I don’t do this often for women evolve.
But there is something about sewing into a word for me and I’m gonna sew into this word because there’s some places in my heart that will turn into stone and just as a sign of sacrifice as a sign of me building an altar where I say God, this is where I laid down the stone so that fresh fire can be birthed.
I’m gonna sow a seed into this message. There are instructions on the screen.
If you wanna partner with me in sewing, this is not obligatory. This is completely up to you.
This is not something that you have to do.
But for those of you who believe in the principle of sewing or are just curious about it, maybe this is an opportunity for you to say, you know what God, I’m gonna put you on trial and I’m gonna see what this sewing is all about.
I just wanna say a quick prayer over this seed, God.
I thank you that because we have marked the spot with seed that there is harvest.
Oh God, the harvest connected to this moment, generations will speak about God.
You’re giving us tools, you’re giving us strategy, you’re giving us wisdom and God, I thank you that my children’s children’s Children will know how to remove the stones out of their heart because of what you’re doing in my life in this season.
Let me never forget that you will replace my heart of stone and give me a heart made of flesh.
God, I wanna pray just real quick, God over someone who was sewing over the heart of stone that is in someone else’s chest, their mother, their friend, their sister, their cousin, their fathers, their brothers got somebody sewing with connection in mind.
God, let there be overflow.
They may never hear this message but because they will receive from the person who was taking this message seriously, their heart will be transformed.
God, I thank you for the women connected to this movement.
May you be with them always and forever.
And may you continue to raise us up to be giants in our spears in Jesus name?
I pray amen. Family. I love you all so much.
You know what it is this place next month.
Hey, you a time of soul care with you in mind.
We love you and it is our honor to serve what God is doing in your life.
Take a moment and let this marinade, let it produce change, let it change you and then tell every woman who needs to know woman, you can still evolve.
We’ll see you next time. OK?